Ok so i have been gone awhile

[joeysmom2000]

Ok, so i have been gone awhile.... well not awhile more like AWHILE. In fact I don't remember the last time i was on here alot.lol My last journal post was i believe almost a year ago.lol But i know i have been on here since then.

And here's the explanation.

Last year everything went crazy and i mean CRAZY. My relationship with my bf of almost 9yrs went sour. not a bad kinda hate me no hate u sour. Just turned non existent. i was working nites he was working days we were both caring for my son. but even when we were home together there really was no contact of any kind. and it surprised me that i was ok with that. for years i convinced myself we were in love and everything was fine. but it wasn't there was no love no intimacy. i laughingly told my friends it was like being divorced but still living together.  The problem that sprouted was i didnt want to be that example for my kid to think that kind of relationship was ok. so the decision to leave was made. I left my nice comfortable existence with internet cable, a nice neighborhood. the holy grail so to speak. I moved in with my sister and her noisy household. I still had to make it to work and sock money away to get out on my own.

during this time i met this guy at work.  He was nice funny all that good stuff. we started talking and soon started dating. alot of people told me it was to soon. i had just broken off a 8 1/2 year relationship. i had no idea how to explain to them that my relationship was over WAAAAAAAAAAY b4 i left. so i just took the criticism. My relationship with this new guy flourished. He was everything i wanted in a guy. and we have been together since. Joey and i moved into an apartment with my friend Luke, Clayton my bf moved in with me. I once again live in a male dominated household. only difference i can actually stand these males. To add to my already chaotic life Clayton has 2 boys of his own. We are getting married next month. So i will go from being a mother of 1 to a mother of 3.lol I am very happy now. Not fake it to hide shit happy but genuinely happy. 

 I regret being away for this long but it was needed to get life back on track. I have missed all my friends on here.