I am very confused about what I want. Right now I am on welfare and do not have all the things we had when I was married. My daughter Mary and I have grown closer! Mary's grades have gone up. People keep telling me to get an education, college, so I will never need a man.

The thing is I am thinking so much on what people say, I get angry and stressed and snapped at my daughter to go to her room. So I can vent through tears or cafe-mom. She sat there on her bed wondering what is going on, staring like why am I being punished. I can not say how terrible this makes me feel !

The truth is I have given up on talking with anyone who stresses me out like this. I just want to be here for my daughter! Everyday she comes home from school, I am here! She tells me about her day.

My mother was a career woman. I don't want to be a career woman. My only interest in school is what my daughter can tell me. I want to be here for her.

Mary is the most important person in my life. I want to see her goals met.

Am I a terrible person for not wanting to go to school? Honestly I have no desire to compete for material possessions! These things do not make me happy. I like to have what I need and no more.

Although my daughter's room is cluttered, I don't make her live by this rule! It is how I feel. I simply just close her bedroom door.

Material things make people mean. My ex-husband was very cocky. Loved his truck and although I could see him as strong and masculine, I wondered about not only his karma but, my karma for being an accomplice to the aggressive and mean nature of his treatment toward others.

I just want to be happy! My happiness truly comes from seeing how well I care for my daughter, Mary. And seeing the success on her face as she brings home her awards from school.

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