For some reason I am very unsatisfied.  Which is weird because I woke up saying good morning sunshine.  An now I am just blah.  I have sat here an wondered what Michael does at night on these trips.  Like for instants he had a parade today, which was only at most 2 hours long.  Which would have ended it at 8.  Here it is 10pm an I havent heard from him.  I haven't heard from it at all at night since he has been gone.  Its hard enough not having him here at night in bed next to me.  But now for him not to even call, bothers me even more.  I just wish sometimes he would think of me more when he is away.  Sometimes I sit there an think that when he is away, he thinks he is a free man. I know he is out there having fun, going to bars.  But then again I sit here an wonder if I have the right to sit here an complain, because when he is home he is a very attentive father, an husband.  He is here when I need him, he comes home from work, an either spends time with us or watches Aleia while I am at work.  

I think I may just be jealous because he got away.  He is away from our home, from his work(well sort of) he isn't here worrying about family life.  Which we all wish we could do at some point . 

I just me crazy an jealous. Simple as that.

Forgive me an all this babble.

Well goodnight my fellow Mamas. I hope you all have a great night. I am gonns sit here an watch my Gilmore Girls.  An head to bed soon.

I shall talk to you soon.

GOODNIGHT!!!!

Rachel