I am going to apologize in advance for this posting. I know that there are alot of people with bigger battles than mine. I am turning 50 this year and I feel useless, sad and alone. My kids have their own lives and families and don't seem to have time for me....I can't seems to reconnect with my husband who I love very much and "miss". We live together but I feel like his roommate instead of his wife. I have stepchildren issues....I lost my mom, my sister and my dad all within 2 years and I haven't been able to get out of this funk!I am 60 pounds overweight, I know I need to take it off but I just don't have the emotional stamina to acheive it. I AM A MESS! Boy do I sound pathetic. I don't normally do things like put my thoughts out there for others to see but someone above (I believe) led me to this site so that I could "talk" about what is going on. I need help and maybe just a friendly ear will do the trick. I probably need to see a doctor and get something for depression but isn't that just another sign of failure and weakness? I don't even have the energy to decide that.
So very frustrated all I want to do is cry!