Frustrated

[Amanda420GT]

I am so frustrated with life! I need to pull it together for my family but I have been so depressed lately. I am trying very hard to pray and let God take over these issues. Sometimes it is much easier to say than do. My children are fighting a lot. We have other very pressing issues to deal with as well. Things just keep building up and I just don't believe I can take any more. I don't even want to get out of bed. I made an appointment with my doctor for tomorrow. Don't get me wrong I am not suicidal or anything. I just really need more positive influences in my life. I feel like I help everyone else when they need it and I am always there for them. When I need someone to help me nobody is available. They don't answer their phones or are too busy with their own lives to worry about me. My faith is definately being tested but everything happens for a reason. What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger. Hopefully I can just keep my head up and get it together on my own. I really need to turn to my church family but I am not always comfortable doing that. My church is very old fashioned and the last time I went to my pastor for counseling I felt that he was being very arrogant and judgemental. I didn't feel helped at all only discouraged. I volunteer there and do what I can for the church but sometimes I feel that maybe it isn't the right one for me. I am very confused and feel like I am having a nervous breakdown. Please pray for me. I need to be healed and I am not even sure how to do it. I also had a hysterectomy on January 30 of this year. As a result I gained 20 pounds and am very depressed about this also. I feel like the surgery changed my whole life and I am only 28. I don't believe I was ready for that. The doctor just tells you the surgery is necessary. They don't explain how to deal with the mess that follows. I was a size 3 and now wear a size 8-11 to be comfortable. I can't stand anything tight on my belly anymore. I don't believe my body is fully recovered inside either. Well I have whined enough. Time to get my boys working on their homework. Thanks for caring enough to read this!

[Gracemommy]

May. 20, 2008 at 6:59 PM I'm feeling you girl.  I've not been clinging to God like I should and am wondering if that has something to do with this mess I'm in.  Just hang in there and know God will see you through!

[Neze]

May. 20, 2008 at 10:35 PM

I know this is a hard time for you right now. But just try to give it to GOD. Even when you think you can't just say I don't have no more please give me patience, or give me strength to go through this day or just give me peace. At that moment when you feel you can't go no more think of all the positive things that happen that day and if there wasn't just in general of all the positive that will come.  I will have you in my prayer.. You take care and stand strong.